Aug 6th, 2012.
Six years ago we lost my dad. I can't help but reflect on thoughts of him and this day.
It is a cloudy day just like 6 years ago. Bad thunderstorms rolled through after we
got home from the hospital. We (Kim, Patti, Katie and I) sat around the table with mom
and made what phone calls we had to. Barb, Mike and family's were on route to Delaware.
We probably held onto dad a little to long. I know it would have been against his wishes. And I still hear in my head "Dammit Nora get me out of here" Those were his last words to me before he went back on the ventilator. We watched him slowly slip away from us each day. We washed him up, combed his hair, talked and laughed with him. I know he could hear us. And tried to find the good in the doctors words. To keep him with us longer for the family. Knowing what a very hard long road it would be for mom if things were different. (Either way it was a very long hard road for us all but we had mom). Then one Dr told us "he would not want this". Mom was slowly coming to grips with it all then, the what ifs, where and hows of those ifs. So that night we called family to come to the hospital and we did what we had been doing....took a vote. We stood in a circle holding hands as Jacob said a wonderful prayer and let dad go off to his God and all his glory. Dad was in heaven just like that. No pain, no suffering, he left us quickly, for that I am grateful. Or did time just stop for us? Either way I feel it was Gods presence, it was right, he was ready. God was with me the whole time dad was in the hospital answering my prayers and giving me strength. We came home and sat with mom. The we went to Patti's and a wonderful thunderstorm rolled through while we were on her porch. I know it was dad up there throwing some of that lightning around. The days ran together and we made it through a difficult time. And as they say. Time marches on. Six years later I can still hear dad's laugh, his dammit Nora's (I should be a doll), And the pride and joy he had in all of us. So don't sit here and be sad. Be happy we had him, and he is with mom now AND we will see him again! Each day we are here is a day closer to seeing them again..
Live ~ Laugh ~ Love
2 comments:
nice memories, i luaghed at our private conversation then sobered up. and treasured the memories. lisa albrights daughter put on the song butterfly kisses song about daddys little girl. i love love love that. i am blessed to to have had him and mom.
I am looking forward to seeing them again.
Love you all
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